11/10/2025
i think that in my what must be 300 entries here since i started posting, i've deleted one - at max, 2 - entries and that was because i felt that i overshared
they were about my mom and if i'm measuring how i'm feeling, or what i'm not feeling, i think that's a good basis because i feel like i should edit some of my entry from a few days ago to not overshare but i can't bring myself to care
i haven't been sleeping too well either, i think i fell asleep at 7am this morning and had to wake up 2 hours later for class, so i was obviously exhausted. i'm trying to ground myself in something, so that i can feel more normal, and not like i'm just existing (without purpose?) but it's difficult
there are less than 2 months until the new year and the end of this blog and i hope that i can manage to sort myself out by then