11/8/2025
i got into a disagreement with my mom because i asked her if she could loan me $10 yesterday so that i could order dinner (i was only a few dollars short) but she has this mentality about helping where it's a bit like, i'll only help you if you help me first and because she had given me a ride earlier that day somewhere, she felt she didn't have to
and a no would've been fine, but she called me something insulting and just ignored me for hours? and it carried over into today because i made myself lunch and not her, something that upset her (hypocritical, if you ask me) and i asked her why i would've done that if not only did she ignore me yesterday but she went out to lunch today and didn't think to ask me again if i wanted anything, and she told me not to speak to her for three weeks
i'm not upset, it's just, like. okay? i don't ask for anything at all, aside from a ride here and there because i can't drive, and i walk everywhere except when i can't! more than that, though, i'm tired of the idea that someone only deserves your help if they helped you first
so, my day wasn't great, and i may just go back to bed to not think about everything