1/19/2025
today was rough.
in the last few weeks, i've tried to set boundaries with my mom. i'm kind of proud of myself because it hasn't been easy but i'm sticking to it. sometimes it seems like she's trying to understand and other times she acts like today.
so i've been trying to sell some of my own stuff off so that i have a little more pocket money. you know, i sell cheap so it almost always meaning have just an extra $20. but i feel good because it's my money and i don't have a job.
she really doesn't understand how i feel and she's made it clear that she's not interested in helping. sometimes it feels bad, like when i desperately need just a few dollars and she refuses to help and tells me that i should just sell my stuff off.
well, i've been trying to do just that. i've listed a few items up on marketplace, and i've also been trying to help my aunt, too. it's been slowgoing so far. i got into an argument with my mom today because she took one of the items that i had listed up and gave it to my cousin without permission. i was upset that she would do this and i expressed this and she just told me that i owed them for taking me out to dinner the day before. it didn't feel great having that thrown in my face, especially after i gave her a small prize i won recently in a giveaway as a thank you. it wasn't anything hugely expensive but i did appreciate that they'd paid for me. it didn't seem like she'd really understood so i brought it up again and she said basically that fine, i won't give your stuff away. but you're being ungrateful to your aunt (because the item was a gift to her grandchild) and that i was uninvited in the future from going with her to visit that aunt.
i dunno, i didn't really know to handle it. so i gave her everything i was holding for my aunt back and wiped my hands clean of it.
i don't feel particularly good. i hope tomorrow i feel better.