5/13/2025
good morning!
today's diary entry is earlier than usual. i woke up too early and rather than going back to sleep (for now 😇), i sat outside for a while and enjoyed the cool air that only exists in these hours before it warms up to 110 degrees and is too unpleasant to go outside in. the buses were passing, and i was wondering if it was the same one that my sister and i used to take when we were in high school. i still remember the routine. because we lived on the other side of town, we'd have to wake up at 6am and be outside and ready by 6:30am. there were a group of other kids, of course, and my sister and i would always sit in the far back of the bus. i can't remember if we usually sat together? i do remember the route that we took to get home, though. i don't think the road still exists anymore, if you could call it that at all. it was this stretch of unpaved dirt that just happened to be in the same direction as home. there were plans a few months ago to annex it and turn it into a park. i'll have to check if they went through, i guess.
anyway, i was sitting there and thinking back to that time and i felt kind of envious for all of the high school aged kids who still have that. i dunno if it was the routine, because i lost any sense of those after i graduated, or the time alone to think. the bus rides were always 40 to 50 minutes long and they were calm. i didn't appreciate that kind of thing when i had it, and now everything feels too loud.
i'm going to go back to sleep, i think. thank you for reading all of that, if you did!