8/14/2025
well i did it!
i deleted both of my X accounts and discord and took it a step further and removed a few people from my followers list on instagram
that's kind of what inspired the post about how fragile friendships are? i guess that its a bit like. how do we even know how we feel about people? like, how are we measuring these things? for example, a few months, i was convinced that i held strong feelings for a friend just because he seemed to care more than most people and when he became a little distant (by no fault of his own, things happen!), i reflected on it and now i'm not sure how i feel
and maybe it's narcissistic of me to measure the worthiness of a person or how much someone means to me by how much we interact or how often they reach out but i haven't really had an easy time with people or trusting people so it always means a lot to me! i know it's probably the same for others but still different
but in the absence of that, i'm confused, i guess, is how i'd describe it
tomorrow i might decide to delete my instagram too but for today, i'm just reflecting?