8/20/2025
i've felt sort of sad all day
it hasn't helped that i gave in and reactivated my social media, probably! it's only temporary, but it's a reminder of how much i haven't moved forward and have nothing to show for the last few years. anyone ever felt like that? like you should revert to old habits and rekindle old relationships because you're not sure you'll find anything better or do anything better, no matter how much you try
i've spent the entire day thinking that maybe i wasted my time trying to keep this project going (this isn't what i actually think, everything just feels hopeless right now)
i don't know who to share this with that could help, and i don't know if i'd want to burden anyone anyway
there is a bright spot: a few days ago, i read an entry on here from someone like i sometimes do and they said they felt stuck in time and i haven't ever seen anyone else put that into words but it was a small comfort to know that i'm not entirely alone so thank you, whoever that was