9/16/2025
hihi, i feel like i can only begin this with an apology for how boring everything i've had to share recently has been
i'm perfectly fine with it but maybe it doesn't make for the most interesting blog when i'm only talking about my day!
it's difficult for me sometimes to feel like i'm not disappointing someone when i do that, which is probably certifiable because i started this for myself and not for a hypothetical audience? maybe i'm losing the plot or purpose a little, i'll try to straighten myself out but it gets increasingly harder to do that
on that note, i was out with a few friends and it felt as if my own conversations w/ each of them were shallow compared to the one they were having with each other. i guess that the feeling of not belonging or not doing enough is poisoning my real life, too
i'll get past everything, i always do, but it's so fucking tiring