9/27/2025
hii
i'm not sure how i'd describe today, maybe messy
i haven't felt much like writing lately, a little bit because i think i'm starting to use it to give myself a free pass for things that i didn't do that i should, or as a way to rationalize stuff that i do
obviously this is unhealthy and maybe less obvious is that i'm not actually doing this at all but framing it as so in my head. i can't tell really
i'm trying to take myself out of this line of thinking or to shift out of it, but i don't think i can manage that right now
c u tomorrowwww