9/29/2025
hai
i had a sort of revelation today? or maybe it was just a question, something to ponder on? i'm unsure
i was zoning out during lecture today and i started thinking about this idea for a short story i had about the only child of a famous director blah blah it's not important
what is important is that i was thinking about how i could make his character not a stereotype or caricature and then i started to wonder if all famous people are actually caricatures? as in, sometimes i have trouble feeling rooted in the moment and when that happens, i usually have a hard time being myself entirely, or it's all too easy to sort of become one myself. i have to think of something to ground myself and it's usually the opposite of validation (something i think i've mentioned quite a bit recently and probably the inspiration for this line of thinking)
anyway, i just started thinking about how difficult it is to be a celebrity or someone with so much power that all you really receive is validation. i think that i would lose myself entirely if i were in that scenario, so i wonder if it feels impossible ever for famous people to feel like themselves
i probably sound fucking insane and i understand if someone reads this and thinks that 🙃 i think i just kinda lost myself in that moment
(i made no progress on thinking more about the story, by the way)